This time, perhaps because I lost Dad first, the grief hit immediately. I mean, I'm losing my posse! I'm losing the people who have helped me feel anchored in this crazy, ever changing world. What can I say? I feel like an orphan! It's not rational, I know. I still have plenty of friends and family in my life. Never the less, it is how I have felt.
Things have seemed pretty darn bleak to me and I have been sooooooooooo tired. Sometimes, it has taken all my effort not to fall asleep during the day. This can be a bit of a problem at work, let me tell you.
I have also been in a kind of fog for the last few weeks. It seems like I can't hold a thought in my head or concentrate for very long. Oh, I've managed the basics to get through the days, but that's about it. Poor, Matt. He's had to deal with the brunt of it.
So, I did what I always do when the darkness closes in on me. I took it to my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me...to heal me.
He did. I am better. Not a 100% yet, but better. I know he will help me the rest of the way in time.
All that to explain why I haven't blogged in a while. I just haven't been up to it. I meant to but I couldn't seem to concentrate long enough to get it done.
But, I'm back. Nice to be here.
I have managed to do a bit of quilting through all of this. I know it sounds weird, but sewing helps me process. For me, it is a form of meditation. The room is totally quiet, except for the ambient noises outside the open window, my hands are busy doing something I don't really have to think about, which thus frees my mind to ponder on whatever I need to.
So here is what I have been up to...
here at Moda Bake Shop.
That's all the sewing I did. But I wanted to show you something else.
As we were going through my Aunt's estate, we came across some boxes filled with vintage sewing items. These were generously given to me. They are a treasure trove of wonders!
I actually have pictures of us wearing them. I will have to dig those out and post them.
And here's the amazing thing